Writing, Me, Apathy

APATHY is the binder of all stable moods.

By stable moods, i mean moods that do not shoot in high intensities. I kind of like apathy as a feeling – there has never been much of a stable feeling like this. Unstable moods, as i so often experience them (as in manic-depressive or happy-sad) brings a hell lot of stress! It makes me think constantly and worry constantly, turning things into ideas and detaching myself with the Real.

So apathy, apathy, stay with me.

But for a writer, there can never be a considerable dose of apathy. For an effective writing needs pathos or emotional effectiveness (unless one’s writing for a textbook), so an apathetic writer cannot make readers relate when in the first place, there’s no emotion in him. That’s why a writer has to be an artist, master the drama, know the art of emotions.

Tears for the writer, tears for the reader.(unless the reader is apathetic.)

If i was never born to write, i’d live my life happily with apathy.

One Story, Multiple Authors

The girl who wrote that post below is not the same girl who is writing this post you are reading, and is also not the same girl who at once filled this homepage with such flowery words of love.

Because that girl riding the clouds of happiness cannot be one with the girl who’s bitter and broken. They are separate concepts, different things. Same with the girl who wrote ambitious dreams, in contrast with the girl who has decided to stop believing.

These different pictures of thought belong to one roll of film with equally real frames. But every girl in each frame is different; the one who laughed cannot also be the one who cried. If you insist that she would still be the same person – then answer me, how can that one joyful spirit persist to be the one and the same when there is no longer joy but only emotional pain?

Yet they write one story, i believe they still are different; as one identity of an author dies, a new one is born.

Blog-anniversary!

Yay! My blog is now a year old. With that one year, i’ve faced a lot of changes, formatting bugs, endless changing of blog titles, and “what’s gonna be my next post?” troubles. Any unforgettable highlights? Well, unfortunately there is. Back from September, my classmate saw a “scandalous” post around here dating from February. The bad part is that it really is a bad post. People from the Supreme Court got to read it. Charges of libel were prepared against me. And yeah, i am only fifteen. What the hell for my kagaguhan! It was a state of panic. Instead of begging for apologizing from my classmate, i defended my side. But an angel she truly is, she didn’t let the whole thingie go to court. After getting everything settled through a text message and public apology, the mess was cleaned up. And neither of us had to go to court. Lesson learned: Don’t write with too much emotions with no brain.

And of course, thanks to wordpress mobile hehe. I blog here in my phone. To the readers, who sometimes remember to drop by, thanks, to those who read but do not comment, i still appreciate your presence wish me luck and more years of blogging. Oh yes! I no longer plan to build a new blog for my UP Baguio survival. Every update will be posted here. More powers y’all! Ciao!